Namesake

Little Miss Shay turns TWO tomorrow! Whoa! 

Time has flown the very most with her!

I truly have loved being her mom.

 It wasn't until I got her that I realized I was just given the opportunity to fill the role my mother was to me. 

There is  nothing else like the mother daughter relationship. At least not to me. 

My mom is the person in my that has always, always been there. 

There is no one like my mom in my world.

So naturally when I was blessed with a daughter I couldn't think of anyone else I wanted to name her after.

I pray I can fill the shoe's my mom has.

It's not that she made everything perfect or paved a smooth road. 

She has let me be me.

She has allowed to room to grow and fail, both to help me become stronger.

She without fail has been there for me in my darkest hours as well as the highlights of my life.

She drove to California (where we were living) the day before I was having surgery on my 21st birthday and showed up on my doorstep so I didn't have to go through it without her. I have never in my life had someone do something I needed so much. 

She held me long into my teens years when I would come home from being bullied at school. 

She changed her life when my needed saving.

She has always loved me, accepted me and been my biggest encourger in life.

At 28 I still call my mom when I need a pick me up.

I pray, I pray

I can be all those things for my sweet shay
 I hope I can love her in a way she never doubts it

I pray I can encourage her to be and do all that she dreams of
I pray I can give her tough love when needed

I hope I can allow her to make mistakes

I pray she feels understood and accepted by me especially through her teen years

I hope I can live the kind of life that teaches her resilience, kindness, independence as well as vulnerability

I hope I become her person in life

The person that she wants at her doorstep a day before she hears life changing news

The person she calls when she's a mom to say "thank you"

The person that she undoubtedly knows is and will always, always be there!