Mason's Baptism

Special Day for a Special Boy

Being a mom is tough sometimes. It's hard to see your children struggle with something that is not only out of your control but their control as well. Mason has struggled with anxiety this last year to a point where it is heartbreaking to watch. We woke up the morning of his baptism and I saw instant signs of his anxiety. I did everything that usually calms him down, a warm shower, essential oils and his dog. It seemed to be higher than usual and the normal things weren't helping as much as they usually do. By the time we got to the church he was in a complete landslide. My heart absolutely unraveled watching my son struggle to function and be present when something so strong was fighting against him.  After trying everything we could think of and some personal one-on-one time behind the font while everyone waited we were able to get him from that he wanted to be baptized badly but just couldn't do it.  That setting just wasn't going to work for him.  We prayerfully decided to shut the baptism viewing doors. I went back to the room and got his little brother and sister and we walked back into the little area that goes down into the font along with his two Grandpa's as the witnesses, his birth mom and the sweet little boy who was baptized the same day as him. Together we watched in total darkness other than the small light shining down in the font, Mason be baptized and become the newest member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. As my heart ached for those who traveled from 3 different states to see this milestone in this little boys life, I also felt an abundance of pride in my sweet boy who fought through one of his worst anxiety attacks to be baptized by his father. Just when I don't think I can love him more, I do.  My heart overflowed as we walked back in the room and could feel power of Prayer circulating in Masons behalf along with the compassion and patience from the other family who was sharing the baptism day. I am beyond proud of Mason for truly choosing to be baptized. I am so grateful for patient, loving and understanding friends and family that shared that day with us❤

Mason's 8th Birthday

This birthday was a big one for Mason. It's the age he gets to be baptized. It's a pretty special milestone and because of that we had not only some of our amazing family travel out but also Mason's birth family. It was a pretty big moment for our family since Mason's two sides of his birth family had never met. There was a lot of emotion in his birth and 8 years later it was all coming to together in the celebration of him at his baptism. Friday we had our family and the birthday all come to our house for dinner and to have cake and ice cream. It was so neat to all be together!

We are so proud to be his parents, we are honored to have been chosen and are beyond grateful to have had him returned to us and been reunited here on earth. I love him more then there are words for. He changed my world when he was born and I'm so grateful for the experience of being his mother. He's strong, yet vulnerable, curious, gets lost in something he's interested in, is okay alone, passionate, emotional, has a great sense of humor, loves to laugh, gets carsick, often over whelmed with new or a lot of people, has a growing testimony, is talented at soccer, is born to be outdoors, to fish, to hike & thrives on one on one interaction. He is special. He feels a heavier blanket than most 8 yr olds and continues to fight.  I am one proud mama. He's an awesome kid and it's been an absolute joy to watch him grow up!

Happy Birthday Mason, Your Dad & I love you so much our hearts hurt!